SCRIBES OF ANGEL
FanFic
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DISCLAIMER:
Joss Whedon owns all things Angel and Buffy
TIMELINE:
Angel’s Season 1, immediately following ‘I Will Remember You’
Angel stood on the roof of his apartment building, the beautiful lights of the city stretched out before him.
‘A lonely place,’ he thought to himself. He remembered how lonely he’d felt when he had first arrived in LA, how much it had hurt him to leave Sunnydale, leave Buffy behind. But the way he felt now went way beyond lonely, beyond pain and hurt. It was more pain than he could bear.
‘But we have to bear, right? It doesn’t work with us, it can’t’ Buffy’s words echoing in his mind, haunting his troubled thoughts.
Had he been right? He’d finally got the one thing he had always wanted, and he’d given it away. Why? He wondered if perhaps on some deep level he felt unworthy of her. She was young, and did so much good; and he…well, he had done some horrible things in his time. More than he really wanted to remember. But it was more than that. She had risked her life for him, would always risk herself for him, and that was wrong. He couldn’t put her in danger like that. Something Big was coming and she would die if he couldn’t protect her.
‘Can you bear that burden?’ The Oracles had asked him. Now there was a question. At least she would be spared the memory of what had happened. That burden was his, alone.
He wondered what she was doing, was she happy? The thought came, unbidden and unwanted, that she might be with him. What had Willow called him…Riley? That thought was too much and he fought to keep his features from vamping out. He wanted her so badly, wanted to be with her, always. Would he ever touch her, hold her again? The last time he’d held her she had clung to him desperately, the memory of her anguished sobs pulling at his heart.
‘I’ll never forget, I’ll never forget….’
THE END